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There will be plenty of time for gossip later, from an entirely new place. I think we’ve quite outgrown the League. Laertes supposed Kier had been right after all. Slipping out of the mansion, through the woods and forests and gales, up hills and over bridges stretched across the water, until, days after he set out, days after he was noticed missing, he stumbled into the pine woods of Nightclan, exhausted. He'd been too much, he'd gone too far, he kept reminding himself how terrible he had been — perhaps Bermondsey was right. Maybe Laertes was the one to carry on the curse, it was his cross to carry, after all, and his obsession with it had, truthfully, only driven him closer. It might be better, being the cursed one when he was now so far away, where he couldn't hurt them anymore. He was saving them as much as he was saving himself. Nightclan would offer him a throne of his own, different than the one he had before, and he would be as far away from his family as possible.
The pines gave the illusion of tall, imposing walls, closing off the territory from those around them (he heard Dayclan was nearby, he might be able to pay them a visit), giving an isolated, lonely feel. The ground was wet with the abundance of rivers and waterfalls and hollow ground mixed with snowmelt. It squelched under his paws. In the dead of the night, his breath fogged the air.
Truthfully, he wasn't sure where he was going, but he was sure Kier would show his face eventually, somehow find his way to Laertes even if there had been no planning. He left on his own accord, he left for himself, not for Kier (he would try to convince himself, trying to give himself some form of autonomy, of freedom, but it all tied back to his mentor). Despite his exhaustion at the long walk and the time, he continued, paws nearly numb, carrying him as if they knew where to go, leading him along a carved out dirt path. He scrambled over a mossy log, only to fall over face-first onto the other side. He didn't get up.
Kier hadn’t seen Laertes since taking over NightClan, and a lot had happened since then. Executions. His growing power-madness. The miscarriage. It felt to him that it ought to be a title of its own: The Miscarriage. A before and an after. His time with the kit seemed a distant memory, some childish folly. He thought about him often, but he’d made no move to go and see him. It seemed that for all the training he’d given him, all the ways he’d stripped him of his childhood and fostered an utter dependency within him, he’d simply abandoned him — and to a kit whose sense of self now hinged on him, that was a cruel thing indeed. But Kier was cruel. It wasn’t that he didn’t care for Laertes, wasn’t that he wouldn’t have wanted him with him in a perfect world; it was just that he didn’t have time. That NightClan was not the pinnacle he’d imagined it would be. That being a tyrant hadn’t perfectly plugged the hole in his heart; it had just opened it up to more criticism, more contempt, and in the process created a Kier both more confident and more desperate than ever for the faintest idea that he was doing a good job. And now, since the miscarriage, with Eris still not talking, he was just beginning to move through the fog and into violent, bulging-eyed laughter. The only thought he’d given to Laertes was a vague question in his mind of how he’d slaughter the League and simultaneously keep him safe, get him out, keep him out of harm’s way.
Truthfully, he was lonelier than ever.
While Eris lay unmoving in their nest, her snapped mind not yet known to him; while Kier’s healthy kits played deep underground, unaware of what their childhoods would become; while their mother rotted in a shallow grave, her blood long since grown cold and congealed around bite marks in her throat; while his Clan continued their starved, shuffling life, Kier was out in the forest alone. The wounds inflicted by his sister still ached; his movements were less fluid than usual, more laborious. He was in pain. As he padded into a clearing, League scent touched his nose. Lifting his chin to taste it on his tongue, he turned his head towards the vague direction of it, a low, quiet growl rumbling in his throat. Head thrust forward and sharp shoulders rippling, Kier slipped round the tree trunks towards it, black pelt lost to the night. Claws prickling from their sheathes, he rounded the mossy log—
And immediately halted. “Laertes?” he asked, raising his head straighter and slipping his claws back in.
Laertes? He immediately jumped up, standing stock-still as he stared at the shadowed form that was Kier, only hesitating moments before rushing to his side. He resisted the urge to just press himself against his mentor, just for the comfort of having someone so close, no matter who. He felt guilty, confused that he'd disappeared, and felt even more so when he realized he missed him. He didn't like feeling so alone. Days before he had left, he'd hidden himself around the Mansion, hoping that Kier would call him out for training, anything to take his mind off things, but it had never came. He knew he'd been in Nightclan, that he had opportunities there, but being so easily left behind stung, no matter how conflicting his feelings were. For a moment, he wanted to be angry, he wanted to say something snarky, something mean, yell or get mad, but he told himself he was just worked up from recent events, that he wouldn't mean it, that he'd regret it, and so he kept his mouth shut and let his features soften into recognition, relief.
He stepped back, staring down at his paws now, moving to hunch just in front of Kier, "I …" he began, words dying, "I don't know what to do." It was simple, it was helpless; he felt small. "I don't think I belong in the League anymore," his breathing shuttered for a moment, and he almost looked close to tears, but he held them back. He wasn't going to cry.
Finally, he actually looked. He saw the hardly concealed agony, the exhaustion, the loneliness, and he felt bad for making this about him, "are you alright?" He asked, ears flattening, thin tail draping behind him, twitching in the dirt below.
Kier leaned backwards, alarmed and startled, when Laertes suddenly rushed him, one of his paws picking up like he was going to physically step back or brush him off if he tried to hug him; he was unused to his presence, had fallen out of practice with him, with being so casually close to someone else. And yet, he had the strange urge to pull him closer, to let him cry on his shoulder, to murmur quiet comfort, quiet hushes, quiet assurances that nothing was wrong, in his ear and hold his paw on his back. When Laertes’ expression softened into helplessness, into fear, Kier frowned at him with the closest thing to gentle, confused worry he’d ever shown, blinking carefully as he listened. Then they widened. “Why should you not belong in the League anymore?” he asked soothingly, as if he hadn’t been the one to put that very idea in his head.
When Laertes finally looked up at him, Kier saw the clarity resurface in his eyes for the first time and quickly grew uneasy, self-conscious. He straightened. “Me?” he echoed, trying to sound unconcerned and upbeat, powerful, if only so Laertes didn’t worry. But he still sounded so drained, and for the first time his lie fell short. “Oh, yes, I’m fine — just… a small thing gone wrong. I’m handling it.” He was eager to brush it off; he never liked to talk about his weaknesses.
Growing sombre once more, Kier touched his tail to the kit’s flank and led him slightly away, to dryer ground. He sat down close beside him, his voice quietening and his tail curling softly around Laertes’ lower back. “Listen,” he began, and his voice was an odd blend of comforting gentleness and Kier’s natural instinct to pull back, to stay uninvolved and grander-than, to not make himself uncomfortable with shows of emotion and intimacy. “The things I said, you mustn’t pay them any mind — the League is your home.”
With other kits and apprentices to take Laertes’ place, Kier’s attitude to his protégé had softened; he would always be his best and brightest, but he didn’t need him in the same way anymore — he cared for him, loved him, even, though Kier wouldn’t quite recognise the feeling, but there was that guilt, and with other devotees like Lilacpaw to take his place, devotees he didn’t care for in the same tender, confusing way, Kier wanted to let Laertes go, to give him back his life. But as the tom who had taken it from him, that was easier said than done; he’d created a dependency, and cutting Laertes loose would be leaving him to flounder and drown. Kier didn’t quite see that — he saw the loosening of his grip on Laertes as a kindness, not as the callous, jealousy-inducing abandonment it was, a child taught to come to him for everything and then told to fend for himself. This was Kier taking accountability, being selfless — but it looked very much like cruelty. Like Laertes was just a first experiment that Kier had grown disillusioned with and discarded in search of better, fuller rewards. Like there was someone else.
His words had to have meant something, right? It was worth it, he was worth it to bring along, all that training had to have done some good, had to have been useful in some other way. He didn't need to protect his family anymore, he was the curse and they were better off without him, they would be safe. He didn't want it to all be useless, he didn't want to be useless. It was the second time he struggled to get the words out, feeling so deeply terrible about it that they died in his throat, but he continued, forced himself to, "I almost killed my sister." Despite how quick and matter-of-fact he tried to make himself sound, there was still a shake in his voice, and he elaborated no further.
"They're alright without me, I came to be here, with … you," he hesitated on the latter part of his words, like Kier would reject them. He half expected to be sent back, and like the good little puppet he was, he would turn and he would start walking and he wouldn't stop until he reached League soil. He would be greeted by his mother, angry and worried, by his sisters, scared of him, by his father, angry at him. "Please," he added, staring at his paws.
Kier didn't look fine, it was obvious. His long features were worn, he was thin and raggedy, he was tired, just as tired as Laertes was in the moment, but his mentor's was prolonged. "Even if for a little while, I — I can be useful, I can help you out around the clan, or I can just sit there and be silent," he could do anything, he'd been trained to do anything, "I can't go back right now."
As Laertes continued, Kier let out a breath and silently drew him closer, resting his chin between the kit’s ears with his claws tapping on the muscle of Laertes’ upper foreleg as he listened. As he thought. He was silent for a long time, just taking in everything he said without comment. I came to be here, with … you. Something in Kier’s chest squeezed, with uncomfortable guilt as well as fondness. Tragic gratitude, that at least he had one cat on earth who cared if he lived or died. Despite the reverse size difference between them, he was suddenly aware of how very young Laertes was, of the true extent to which his shadow had leeched into every part of the kit’s life. If he couldn’t go home, then it was his responsibility to look after him. To make sure that, at the very least, he ate. Slept somewhere safe. Didn’t shiver all night in the rain. I can help you out around the clan. Kier would have smiled, resting there atop the kit’s head, if he hadn’t been so tired. The last thing he needed was Laertes hanging around — and yet, part of him yearned for it, for the familiar, easy comfort of having someone from the old days. Someone who didn’t see him as the figure he’d carved out for himself, but as a brazen, self-important trainee, ambitious and free, even if he’d never felt so at the time. He wasn’t safe in NightClan, but he would at least be safer than he was in the League. He said nothing about his plans to kill Laertes’ father; he felt both strangely connected to the older tom he’d never truly met, the two of them so intricately woven into Laertes’ life, and thus guilty at the impact the loss would have on the kit, and irrationally hateful of him. Before the miscarriage, he had wanted to rid himself of Bermondsey just so he could be the dominant influence in Laertes’ life. Now, all he felt was a tired, mournful ache at the inevitability of it. Everything was inevitable. He was so weary.
And so, at last, Kier let out a whisper of a sigh, heavy and defeated, gentle and tired. “Come on,” he told him quietly, and felt he would regret it. Drawing back, he jerked his head faintly in the vague direction of the camp, his voice quieter than the cold, damp breeze through the pine needles. “You must be tired. You’ve had a long night.”
Looping his tail around Laertes’ flank to guide him, he set of slowly through the dark trees, padding leadenly for Laertes’ fragile state. He didn’t hurry him, just padded along with quiet, distant comfort close at his side, silent in the dark. He didn’t ask how Laertes’ had almost killed his sister; in the past Kier would have been delightedly curious, but now he let it fade between them for a later time. How inexplicably their lives were linked, both their points of no return coming in the form of a sister. The last of their innocence might have wafted away into the air on the same night. Finally, in that same quiet voice, he spoke. “NightClan has proven a difficult, painful thing. At first I found their antipathy terribly delightful… Imposing myself, you know. It was a terrific thing — I loved the way they looked at me…” He trailed off, voice fading into the damp chill. Since Eris’ miscarriage, when all he’d had the energy to do was think, the glee of tyranny hadn’t held the same power. He had truly started to assimilate into this Clan, had started to change himself for it, and all they saw, while he felt one of them, was an outsider inflicting his cruelty. And he was, he supposed… This sort of painful, unsolvable thinking was all he’d done, alone in his nest. Even when he was beside Eris he might as well have been alone. He didn’t blame her — didn’t blame her for a second — but all he wanted was to hold her and feel her feel him. “They frustrate me — much of the time, they want me dead. And yet lately, I’ve caught myself feeling a kinship with them. I don’t feel League anymore, I don’t feel like anything I was with my father. I wake up and I feel truly NightClan. Their life… I threw myself in willingly. It makes it hard, sometimes, to hurt them. I can’t make sense of it. They were just a Clan. But nights like this, I feel I see it for the first time. I never cared before — it was a forest. But it’s rather beautiful, isn’t it? The moonlight in the trees…”
He trailed off once more, and when he spoke again his voice was barely audible, just a faint, hollow thing in the dark. If it wasn’t hollow, it would be tearful. And he had cried enough; he wouldn’t do so in front of Laertes. It felt like a quiet explanation, a reason. A confession. Not a whisper; just a muted admission, vulnerability trying so hard to be resilient. Grief wondering why it wasn’t uncaring, a devil wondering why its callousness had been worn down and bled open. “My mate miscarried our kits,” he murmured quietly, numbed eyes on the fallen needles. There was no emotion in his voice, nothing left to feel emotion with, and yet there was the sepulchral echo of everything in it. Every bit of sorrow on earth.
He didn't like how hesitant Kier was. It was unnerving, unnatural. He tried to push his own doubts from his mind, thoughts that Kier didn't need him anymore, that he was unwanted. He'd already had enough trouble with authority figures, he couldn't do another. Come on. Laertes didn't let his relief show, only let himself be led, followed quietly, with eyes on his paws like he wanted to ignore the world around him. Maybe he did. He had had a long night, a long few nights, and all he craved was a warm, comfortable nest, a meal, and solitude. It was almost strange, just how kind Kier was being, but he was reminded of the ice water, how he had sat beside Kier the entire time, shivering and soaked, and then he remembered his sister, floating, breathless and still, how he'd laid beside her the very same way. Laertes listened to him talk about the clan, the things he put them through, feeling number by the moment. Such acts of cruelty were lost on him by now, because Kier was just like that; of course he would want to break them, he couldn't lead if they were stronger than him. Maybe, in another world, Laertes would have done the same. They were too much alike.
My mate miscarried our kits. He stayed silent for a moment. It was difficult to conceptualize such a thing. He was young still, he was naive, things like that had never crossed his mind, "I'm sorry about that," he did sound sincere, but it was drawn, tired. He would have offered more comfort, but he had almost forgotten how. He lifted his head finally, stared up at the moon like Kier had mentioned, how it reflected off the tops of the pine branches, how it made them send shadows across the ground.
"What if they look for me?" His tail flicked behind him, and he looked suddenly anxious. Livelier in a sense, had dread not found a way to twist its way around his guts. "What if someone tells them I'm here?"
Kier twitched his ear dismissively like he didn’t know why Laertes was offering his sympathies, despite being the one to have brought it up. He glanced away, looking out at the forest in silence. If he thought on it anymore, even with this quiet companionship that made him feel like he could breathe out for the first time since that night, he wouldn’t be able to do what he needed to do. And right now, Laertes needed him functional.
At his sudden panic, he looked over at him again. “What are they going to tell?” he asked, and though there was a hint of the familiar disapproval that had once filled his voice when Laertes had gotten an answer wrong, his tone was far more efficiently comforting than condemnatory. He couldn’t keep up his gentleness all the time, but that dedication to solving Laertes’ problems, to fixing his situation, was a love of its own. Whatever could be said about him, Kier was an asset to have on your side. And if Laertes wanted to run away, then he was going to help him. No questions asked. “A grey trainee — are you a trainee yet? I should say congratulations — has been hanging about NightClan; they don’t know about our relationship, do they? And if they do…” He seemed to make a decision, to commit to Laertes fully. “I’ll lie for you. If you don’t wish to go home, then you shan’t be going. You can stay with me for as long as you need. In any case,” and now his mind was doing what it did best: thinking up solutions. For the first time in days, the fog was lifting, the cobwebs snapping, and the cogs were whirring back to life. His pupils darted more sharply, “maybe we ought to put a little divide between you and Nemesis’ son. Laertes is quite distinctive, and three cats with League names are going to begin to attract a bit of attention.” He turned his attention to him once more. “Is there any other name you could use?”
Just before they reached the camp, NightClan scent flooding from the entrance receding into the damp earth and hidden by the dark shadows, Kier suddenly veered to the side and led Laertes down a steep, tree root-laden slope. His steps were quick and sure; having a task, something to do, something to think about, had filled him with life, quiet and resolutely steadfast. At the bottom of the slope wound a thin bubbling stream, cold and silver in the dark. “Come,” he told Laertes, and the familiar command held none of its usual arrogance. It was a reassurance, a promise that Kier had this under control. That Laertes could stop thinking and hand it all over to him. “You’ll raise far fewer questions if you don’t wander into camp reeking of the League.” He glanced back to Laertes from where he’d been eyeing the water absently, lost in his thoughts. Then, remembering with a faint nag of guilt the last time he’d ordered him into water, Kier quickly reevaluated and and padded out into the stream himself. The water was cold and slow, and he stopped when it reached his belly, turning back to face Laertes. There was no ice in it this time. This time, washing off the last remnants of Laertes’ old life, the water would be gentle. A baptism and a reinvention. A sacred act of care, not of cruel ambition. He didn’t speak, just waited with calm blinks for Laertes to join him. This time, it would be his choice.
That was what he was used to. The conviction, the demand — one could question why he preferred that over the softness and the care, why he would favour that over any kindness, and Laertes would not be able to give an answer. It was a kindness, in its own way. "Not yet," he corrected, "almost." He nodded along, more eagerly this time, more engaged, more hopeful, because Kier was good with words, Kier was a good liar (not that he had any experience with it, surprisingly), he would be alright in Nightclan. He'd never lived in a clan before, the comforts of the League was all he'd ever known, and he was sure they didn't have mansions in their depths. Not this one, at least. He always loved the idea of them, their cultures and religions and histories — it was something he had always wanted to look into, but never got the chance. Maybe he would get the chance. They had neighbours so close, as well, it wouldn't be difficult. Bermondsey had told him once, when he had taken him up into the tree for the first time to look at the stars, that there were clans that lived underground, clans that lived only under the cover of night, and Laertes never thought he would live amongst them. Still, the memory tasted bitter, and he tried to focus on the present.
Is there any other name you could use? Another bitter memory crawled into his mind, of Dayclan, and it struck him how polar opposite they were. The situation, the clans, his feelings. "Well," his face heated, suddenly embarrassed, "my mother ... named me Druzy, when we visited Dayclan — Druzykit, but I think I've outgrown it." It didn't exactly feel like it sometimes. But he'd always found the clan suffixes endearing in a way, especially with their kits and apprentices. Who made that up? Kit. Paw. He would have laughed.
He stared at the stream for a moment before deciding he wouldn't waste time. He was tired, Kier was right, he couldn't walk in smelling like League. He stepped in, faintly raising his brows as Kier stepped in first, leading instead of demanding, showing instead of throwing him in. He followed, letting it sink into his thin fur, let it wash off the grime he had collected on the walk, the smell of the League. Home was drifting away with the slight waves, washing him clean of it, of the old mansion smell and the dust and the trees, of his father and sisters and mother. And when it was all gone, it was just Laertes and Kier, staring.
Kier nodded once, sharp and silent — a ’good.’ Left with him to mull it over in the back of his mind, he fell quiet. Without a word, standing stomach-deep in the cold, pale stream, he stepped closer and began to groom the water over Laertes’ ears, through the fur behind it that always stuck up, across the back of his neck. All the parts nature couldn’t reach on its own. Until finally, he was clean. Drawing back, the water breaking around his legs, he looked at Laertes for a moment, eyes unblinking, before nodding and sloshing back to the bank, leading the kit to his new home.
“It’ll be dark,” he warned Laertes as they padded towards the slope leading down into the camp, preparing him for the first few moments in his new life. It still felt like something temporary, more safe house than permanent residence. But Kier would make it comfortable for him in the meantime. “But your eyes adjust quickly enough — just don’t fall off the side, and mind your paws. Now, cats will be awake, and they’ll stare — I haven’t been able to cure them of that yet — but they won’t say anything. They’re obedient enough.” He stopped at the entrance, turning towards Laertes for final reassurance. “Really,” he told him, and despite the efficiency of it, there was quiet softness in his eyes as he looked up at him. “There’s no need to worry.” He was silent for a moment, just looking up at him, and then he added, “you really have grown. How annoying.” It was a dry, flippant joke as he turned away. And then he disappeared into the clinging, liquid darkness; his tail snaked in the air, and then it was gone.
Kier had been right: as they descended the slope and the dark opened up around them, cats around the cavern raised their heads and stared, eerily unblinking. It felt much like it had when he’d first brought Eris in, but hungrier and without the naïve joy; they had felt like children then, and Kier’s chest twisted with grief at the memory. It swallowed him, and then it was gone. Ignoring them with newfound, yielding quietness and none of his former cocky grandeur, eyes on the ground as his paws slipped into grooves in the stone, he led Laertes down to the ground and then slipped away into a small cave, little more than a crevice, in the wall. He reappeared a few moments later, still silent, carrying a thick wad of dry moss in his jaws. It was so full and he so small that he tottered strangely as he carried it towards his den, having to march slightly to keep the trailing tendrils from tripping him up. At the entrance to his den, he suddenly stopped and, dropping the moss at his paws, glanced at Laertes with a look of faint fear. “Wait here a moment,” he breathed, and then bounded into the den. He was gone for half a minute, and when he returned there was a hollow, lonely sort of ache in his eyes, almost disappointment. He tried his best to cover it up, gaze flicking up from where it had briefly hitched on the ground. “I think she’s spending the night in the medicine den,” he told Laertes slightly distractedly, as if he needed an explanation; the way he said it was like he had to prove there was nothing wrong — he and his mate were fine. Really, he wanted to go to her now, wanted to curl up with her and make sure the medicine cat was feeding her, but Laertes was a guest and good breeding dictated that guests had to be cared for first. Even if his heart reached out of the den. “Eris, I mean,” he added, still distracted; he turned, and then glanced back at Laertes, not really seeing him, “have you met Eris?” It wasn’t a question he expected to be answered, wasn’t one he’d really recall asking — it was just politeness.
Picking the moss back up, he led the way up the slope to the rise where his nest lay. Setting it down a little way from his own, he spoke as he patted it into place, head tilted slightly. “I realise this isn’t ideal, but there’s really no where else to put you. Obviously we’ll find somewhere else — tomorrow, maybe — but for now, it isn’t very kind to throw you in with the warriors or the Guards in the middle of the night. My deputy might go snooping and I wouldn’t wish an encounter with her unprepared on my very worst enemy.” Who also, coincidentally, happened to be locked in the dungeons. He laughed, slightly manic. Finally, looking up at Laertes with an oddly nervous sort of smile, like he was uncertain about his acceptance of the arrangement, he stepped back deferentially and, giving a quick, anxious little gesture towards the new nest, retreated to his own. He settled down, staring openly at Laertes like he was unused to someone else being in his den other than his mate, or like he had a thousand questions to ask. The air felt muggy, his pelt soaked through and just beginning to dampen from his body heat and the warmth of his nest; Eris’ scent mingled with his own, one now impossible to discern from the other. The walls of his den towered over them, reaching up to the hole in the roof through which moonlight filtered down. But eventually, cold distance settled over Kier once more. He leaned back in his nest. “How did you almost kill your sister?” he asked, and his voice was its familiar tone. “Which one was it? The cute one, the tall one, or the ugly one?”
He sat there quietly, thoughtfully, as it all washed away, and he tried to tell himself he wouldn't miss it. Maybe he was almost convinced, for when he stepped out of the water, shaking droplets from his fur, he didn't look back. There’s no need to worry. He still looked unsure, staring into the entrance of his new home, but nodded anyway, giving a faint laugh at Kier's annoyance with his height. He was nearly as tall as his mother by now, last time he checked, and he still felt the pang of growing pains indicating more. He sucked in a breath, braving up, before entering after, paws already unstable in the darkness. He stumbled for a moment but didn't fall, walking like his feet were attached to the ground so he wouldn't slip down the slope, listening for the movement of Kier. He stepped into the cavern and immediately shrunk back. They eyed him like he intruded (hadn't he?), like this was the last place he should be. He nudged his head a little higher, stood with his paws together, trying to look like he belonged next to their leader.
"I haven't," he followed him to his den, surprised that he would be offered such a close space. It was comforting. He blinked down as it was constructed, eyes drifting from the moss to Kier to his surroundings. As it was finished, he stepped into it, unsure for a heartbeat, scared he would ruin it, before he laid down, tail curling.
"It, uh, it started when I asked her to race to the marshes with me, because she was following me out — and then I was practicing my tree climbing," he paused, waited to see if he was given a pleased look for the dedication, "I fell and she tried to catch me, but I landed on her tail wrong and it broke. We fought. Then, it escalated and I think I gave her a challenge, and I told her to go into the … the pool. The one I went into. . ." his voice faded for a moment, "she almost drowned. I had to save her." Staring at his paws now, his head ducked, face heating. Somehow, confessing it twice didn't make it feel any better, and he still felt the sting. "My parents found us and got mad at me. Bermondsey said maybe I was cursed. I think he's right. But I didn't mean it."
And then I was practicing my tree climbing. Kier looked down as Laertes looked up, picking a tendril of moss from his nest so he didn’t have to look at him; feigning ignorance, or pretending he hadn’t heard him at all. He stayed like that the whole time the kit spoke, picking at his nest with slow, languid movements. To anyone else, it was arrogant disinterest in a story that didn't concern him; to Kier, listening to every word, it was guilt. It only strengthened, feeling to him like discomfort, as the pool was brought up. He knew precisely which one. He shifted slightly in his nest; his leg was going numb. Bermondsey. Not father. His ears twitched slightly at the change in form of address, but he said nothing, just filed it away.
"But you did save her," he replied, finally looking up. It was comfort, or meant as it. He wanted to say more, wanted to say oh, Laertes, there is no curse — you saved your sister, you’re so achingly kind. Would a curse run away for fear of hurting its family? He knew curses, and this family turmoil wasn’t one. But the words died on his tongue; he couldn’t choke them out. The guilty part of him that loved Laertes battled with the part that still had use for him, and the latter won. Maybe one day he’d say that all the fear he’d fed Laertes had been lies, had been for his own ends — let him hate him, let him rage and weep at his lost childhood. And so, maybe Kier wasn’t afraid of confessing because the anger would foil his plans for the kit. Maybe he was afraid of confessing because he would lose him. A companion kept by dishonesty was still a companion, and he could help Laertes… Even if he used him in return. He bowed his head. It was the closest Kier had ever come to feeling ashamed. To feeling sorrow and regret. "Your parents were wrong to be mad with you. You did nothing but act with utter bravery and compassion. I'm sorry they couldn't see that." After a moment of quiet, he added in a softer voice, "you have nothing to be sorry for." In the past, Laertes' shame had served him. Now, injustice would serve him more. At least, that was how he reasoned his kindness. He didn't want to admit, didn't want to even acknowledge, that perhaps his love was just love.
Kier rested his chin on the edge of his nest, blinking at his protégé. Was that even the right word anymore? The atmosphere in the dark, warm den felt close, quiet, unspoken; they’d never slept in the same space before, and the intimacy felt both inevitable and strange, disjointed. “Druzyprince,” he said at last, like he had come to a decision, voice both authoritative and little more than a mumble, chin unable to move against the softness of his nest and eyes hooded, sombre. Like it was the most obvious next step in the world. “Your name will be Druzyprince.” His daughter was a king; Laertes would be a prince. He had been born to nothing, but he could give out titles now. Could make cats more than they had been. And here he was, a self-made royal bestowing favour on one born to a crown and meaning it as a kindness. As a promise. As devotion; protection. "You'll be something finer than your father." There was faint, tired bitterness in his words, but a promise again. He would make it so. He would nurture him now, guide him. The cruelty had outgrown them both.
He lay his head down, sank his nose into the fresh moss, eyes downturned, seeing mostly green. While Kier blamed himself, Laertes absolved him of all of it, preferring to keep him up on the pedestal he had been put and convincing himself that he was helping. But you did save her. Slowly, Laertes nodded. He had, technically, but it still felt so terrible. It would take a million good deeds to rid him of a single terrible one. He gave a vague, quiet chuckle at the words, still disbelieving, and mumbled a thanks under his breath, finally having the courage to look at Kier. Maybe he shouldn't have felt so guilty. It was Kier who threatened his sisters first, it was Kier who wanted him to murder that Springclan tom, it was Kier who attempted to teach him the art of poisons — what was the point if he wasn't living up to it? Maybe he was more successful than he realized.
The thought didn't make him feel any better.
Druzyprince. His head lifted, and for a moment he looked thoughtful. It was regal, it was new, it was familiar. "Druzyprince," he repeated, like he was agreeing to a deal (and wasn't he?), "it's. . . I like it." He knew, age wise, he shouldn't have a proper suffix, that they didn't know their full names until they were promoted — he found it interesting, truthfully, if not strange — but he ignored it.
You'll be something finer than your father. He thought back to their fight. Maybe Druzyprince would be.
"Good," Kier replied with a sharp little nod, and it was final. The ink was drying and the deal was struck. With that, he stood, turned, and lay back down with his back to… Laertes? He didn’t know what to think of him as. “Now get some sleep.” Since losing his kits, Kier’s sleep schedule had become a random, exhaustive thing — where before he’d thrived in the nocturnal dark, now he slept fitfully, or for great periods of time, or not at all, in the day and in the night, with no rhyme nor reason. But as he lay there, as the hours slipped by and the night deepened and blackened and drew colder, as the shadows shifted and warped across his stone wall, he didn’t sleep. He couldn’t. He was tired; he was awake; he felt sick; he felt nothing. At one point he began to shiver from the cold, curled up tight. Every so often he’d hear Laertes behind him, hear him shuffle in his nest or rearrange himself, and Kier’s ears would sharpen instinctively to listen, growing alert even as he lay with his chin on the moss and his back to the kit. Laertes’ breathing was a constant companion. He couldn’t switch off his attention — he wasn’t used to anyone else but Eris being with him nowadays and as soon as his mind began to wander or drift, as soon as his body began to relax, Laertes would make some sound and back up his ears would go. Kier’s eyes never fully closed; he just stared at the opposite wall. Sometime in the night, the tip of his tail began to twitch, tapping quietly against the edge of his nest in pointed, passive aggressive annoyance. It wasn’t Laertes’ fault — it wasn’t even that Kier was particularly uncomfortable. It was more… Well, the longer he lay there, the more he began to think he’d grown unused to being alone in his nest, to not having Eris’ warmth and the rasp of her breath. When he realised it, Laertes’ presence behind him became a faint comfort. And finally, as dawn began to broach the forest and the first of the birds began to sing, the twitching of his tail faded to safe, quiet stillness and Kier drifted into sleep.
The next morning, Kier was up first and all efficiency. He cleaned himself in the pool of water, shouted a few things at a few incompetent guards, had a meeting with Snowblister for the first time in weeks, gently checked in on Eris and ignored the medicine cat, and still had time to bring Laertes breakfast — he felt more alive than he had since the miscarriage. Laertes’ arrival had reinvigorated him, or snapped him back to himself — if he couldn’t run his Clan for himself, then he would run it for Laertes. He’d come seeking refuge; it wouldn’t do if that refuge was ungoverned and confused.
He was far more soldierly, far more imperturbable and put together than he had been the previous night; in fact, he was rather embarrassed about his conduct. It had been a poor impression. “Breakfast,” he greeted Laertes, dropping a finch by his nose and padding briskly around to sit beside the younger tom’s nest. “No time for sleeping — we have things to do.” He reached forward and smacked one of the newly christened Druzyprince’s ears back and forth, more insistently annoying than painful. “Up, up, up. Eat, eat, eat.” He leaned over him and drew the finch closer to him. “Fresh from the sky. Your ratty little League diet won’t hold a candle to food for royalty here — we’ll have some meat on those bones in no time. Come, come. Eat. It’s good.” Kier pushed it closer again and sat back with something like an eager little wiggle, in conflict with the no-nonsense, impatient sternness of his expression; he liked taking care of others, liked fussing. And he’d missed him. He fought back the smile, the excitement, the tenderness threatening to creep into his strict, irritated eyes.
It didn’t compare to the warmth of his family, of being curled up just under his mother’s chin (his favourite spot), of laying next to his sisters in their own room of the Mansion. A moss nest in some cave was certainly a downgrade, one could say, but Laertes … Druzyprince? Found it almost pleasant. The company of Kier, usually a confusing thing, was comforting, and the slow trickle of fresh water was almost a lullaby. He had hardly slept in the days since he’d left the League, and now, even though his mind was buzzing, he found himself lulled into the softness of it. His breathing slowed. He sometimes kicked during the night, caught up in confusing dreams of caves and houses and crawling roaches, but it was over as it started, returning the room to peaceful silence.
He would have slept hours longer had Kier not woken him up. He opened a single drowsy eye, staring at the finch like he was trying to figure out what it was and, with a wet yawn and a stretch of his front paws, he sat up and tucked it closer. His fur looked a mess, sticking up oddly and curled in strange places, the type of tussling that spoke of the world’s greatest sleep. It almost felt like it, and he almost asked for a few more minutes.
“I’m getting there,” he waved Kier off, settling down to take a bite out of the prey — it was almost warm, tender, fresh, and though the Mansion was abundant with mice, they usually weren’t as sweet as this. As Druzy ate, he continually eyed Kier, expecting him to say something instead of staring, fighting a similar grin because what was so exciting? When half the thing was gone, he swiped a tongue over his whiskers. “What will we be doing?” He tilted his head, immediately going back to his meal, still listening with perked ears. As much as he wanted to stay in his nest, to rest and sleep the day, or two, or three, away, to forget about the past little while in his induced hibernation, he was almost to impatient to wait any longer by now. A confusing mix of energy, one wanting to sleep, the other wanting to do absolutely anything fun, anything to get his mind off things in a way that wasn’t wilting in his nest. The finch soon disappeared, leaving behind the bones and whatever he didn’t like (animal heads always creeped him out), though the especially good bits were wiped clean.
“I’m not some trainee in the League anymore, Laertes, and you’re not some Warden’s kit — ‘what will we be doing’ is no longer the question of the day.” It was said fondly. Kier found great stability and comfort in Laertes looking to him for every direction — whatever else changed, that would stay the same. That blind loyalty, the fact that he had come to him when he had nowhere else to go, the thought that he would sit silent at the foot of his throne and help him build or tear down whatever Empire he wanted to build or tear down… He was everything no one in NightClan would ever be. The brightest kit, the most devoted apprentice… They would never be what Laertes was. But if he were going to become what Kier wanted him to be, what he had had time to think about that morning when everything seemed that much clearer, then they had to find that balance of blind, mindless obedience and independent thought. Kier gave the orders, Laertes followed them — it was a comfort to him, that lack of autonomy; Laertes wouldn’t betray him, wouldn’t do anything without asking permission, wouldn’t go behind his back. He was his to instruct, to order, to guide. He didn’t want another Moonblight, didn’t want a dead-eyed veneer atop all the inner turmoil — he wanted Laertes; silent compliance in public and his stubborn snark in private: a mind when it was needed and none when it wasn’t. Kier had come to rely on it; it was the only challenge to his authority that felt like reassurance, because he knew it was just idle backtalk. He knew who it came from, and he trusted him. Laertes didn’t need to think, didn’t need to have a mind of his own in public — he just needed to be a machine. A machine very good at listening. At watching. The protégé would have to become the villain as the mentor had become the king. A villain of proximity, of circumstance, but a villain no less. Maybe Laertes wouldn’t notice what they were, wouldn’t see what role he had unwittingly stumbled into, would think they were the good guys, but all the Clan would eye him as the one closest to the throne, as the silent interloper with the nervous green eyes who’d wandered in and been granted privilege. Their relationship would need to grow into king and adviser, both ready to throw incriminating papers into a fire under siege and flee into the night. Whatever happened, they would be in it together; there was no way out now — they were entangled, and if Kier fell, so did Druzyprince.
“Clean yourself up,” Kier told him when he was finished, rising to his paws. “Druzyprince must make a perfectly solemn first impression — no curly kit fluff.” Flicking him over the ear with his tail tip, he padded past and made his way down to the entrance of his den to wait. When he joined him, Kier strode out. The cavern looked different in the daylight — lighter, prettier, filled with history and culture and traditions. No matter their subjugation, everyone still knew their role, still held bonds in a way the League never had. The Clan was just beginning to mill about on the way to bed; he had kept them up later than usual, well into the morning. He wove between them, needing to say nothing for them to move aside for him but for once unbothered by having to pause briefly for someone to pass in front of him or wind his way between preoccupied warriors; he just chatted away to Druzyprince as he did so, sounding calmer and more inspired than he had in weeks. He paid no notice to the stares and whispers directed at his new companion; but his blindness to them was entirely fake — he was making a point of parading Laertes about, of letting him be seen. Of showing NightClan that where they had failed, a League cat had been brought into fix their mistakes; that he was the new favourite, the new inadvertent traitor to their cause.
“I was thinking that a position on the Loyal Guard might be a perfect fit for you. I know you’re very young, but really, you’re no younger than I was when I first came to the League, and my traineeship taught me nothing I hadn’t learned from experience already. A waste of time. You’d be unfairly overqualified with the other apprentices — and besides, they learn…” He tried to pick the right word. “Different skills. All you’ve learned on our outings, it’s a whole other kettle of fish.” Plus, for whatever reason, he didn’t want Laertes to be exposed to the trials and sermons and punishments, to have that inflicted on him to steal the innocence that still softened his eyes. He’d partake in them, of course, later — but he didn’t need Snowblister crushing him. “You have practical skills, you know, something these little idiots will never have. Plus, I need you — I trust you.” He glanced at him. “The other Guards — they’re remnants of the past. Outdated. Disloyal, rather ironically.” Kier stopped and turned to face him. His eyes were earnest. “As the first of my new Guards, and as my most trusted, we’d be making a statement — that this is the beginning.” His eyes were bright with fervour, with passion for the idea, and he leaned forward slightly. “Really, it would be little more than a symbolic position — sitting tall, silent, proud, making an example of yourself,” he turned away to continue on, eyes wandering casually to the airy roof, and as he did, his voice lowered, like he was hoping he could say it and so have no accusations of dishonesty, while also not actually being heard, “the odd bit of spying.”
He nodded slowly, slightly confused only for a second, "right. Right." He wasn't sure what it truly meant, but he listened anyway. He was good at listening, at following orders despite being made to give them, at being directed instead of directing. Elsewise, he wasn't sure what to do. Perhaps it was part of the reason he sought Kier out, longed for his company despite the harshness; Kier always told him what to do and expected him to follow, and Druzyprince did. It seemed as thought Kier knew it comforted him more than Druzy knew. He turned his attention to his fur, suddenly embarrassed at the state of it, and got to work grooming it out. He tried not to rush, but it was difficult with Kier waiting just at the entrance for him, with the clan expecting a dignified appearance for the newcomer. Reaching a paw up, he flattened down the furs on top of his head and rushed to meet him, making sure to shake off the last bits of moss from his pelt. He beamed at Kier.
I was thinking that a position on the Loyal Guard might be a perfect fit for you. He was hardly listening. The cave was tall, lit by the light trickling in from the openings in the roof and creating a dim, almost magical atmosphere. Branches of darkness, different tunnels, crawled in each directions, some going lower, some leading upwards. Rocks and spikes and clay dotted the area, and the strong smell of saltwater hit his nose. "That's fine," he said quietly, absently, focusing more on everything else. He didn't truly get a look around last night, too exhausted to really bother, but now he almost regretted it. He stared at what he assumed was a den.
The odd bit of spying. That caught his attention, and his ears perked suddenly, his eyes widened, he almost tripped. "Spying? What? I can't —" He interrupted himself, took a small breath, "on who, exactly." He wasn't unused to it, truthfully — Kier had him listen in on conversations all the time back in the League, but something about calling it spying made him almost squeamish, nervous. It was too official, sounded too dangerous. But then again, he was used to dangerous. He had to be.
Kier didn't know whether he'd been hoping Laertes would catch the words and they could have it out in the open, or whether he'd been hoping he wouldn't and, when it came down to it, he could say 'oh, but I did tell you.' Looking at him, he shrugged one pointy shoulder innocently. "Whomsoever happens to need spying on," he replied calmly, like it were the most harmless thing in the world. Letting out a sigh, he forced the instinct to immediately lie to melt away and padded closer to his protégé. "I'm sorry, you're owed honesty. It's a necessary evil, really. I already have cats to..." He chose his words, eyes darting up, "report on the Clan — rumours, whispers of discontent, you know; they can kill — but I don't trust anyone enough to send them out to other Clans. Stay in the shadows, mostly, or live among them for a little while — you always liked that sort of thing, didn't you? Right now, it isn't necessary. But in the future..." He trailed off and shrugged again, a slow, little thing. He padded on. Kier didn't mention that the primary Clan he wanted spied on was the League; he couldn't send Laertes to do that, not when one word from his father or mother might send him running home. Until NightClan became familiar to him, he couldn't have him tempted, not when the homesickness would be settling in any day. Speaking of which.
He glanced at the younger tom. "Any pangs yet? I know that for me, what with leaving the League being a necessity, I forgot it as soon as I was gone. But I imagine it'll be quite different for you." Though he was prying, his voice, beyond the usual distance, was sympathetic, and it wasn't all pretend. Really, it was more real than anything. "On that note." Kier stopped in front of a cave, smaller than you'd expect — the discomfort got them prepared. "The Loyal Guard den — name pending," he added to Laertes in a low, dissatisfied voice; Loyal Guard sounded so... democratic. It didn't occur to him that, being little more than a kit, Laertes might want to stay with him for the time being, in his den; Kier had always been made to grow up too soon, too fast, sent mixed signals and expected to cope, babied on the moors and then thrown into the trainees' den without any parting words from his father. It had left him both tragically mature and, in matters like this, emotionally stunted; all trainee-aged cats were thrown out in the cold. All their parents didn't let them stay in their room. It was what Laertes surely wanted — it was normal. There was no reason why he should be lonely or afraid; it happened to all kits. Something in his chest ached slightly; he didn't know why. It felt like loneliness. But why should he feel lonely? It made no sense. He didn't want Laertes to stay with him; it wasn't the done thing.
Laertes noticed that every once in a while Kier would say something that made his brows furrow, that made him double-take, that made him question him a little more. The idea that Nightclan was so heavily watched, it almost made him want to watch his own back, even though he knew his place here, despite only being there for a night. He had a feeling those rules wouldn't be applied to him. And always, only moments after, he always chases the thoughts away — he couldn't question Kier now, not when he was providing him a safe home, not when he's so diligently trained him for moons. A necessary evil.
"I suppose. . ." It wasn't a bad idea. Besides, it would give him the excuse to learn about them. Wasn't that what he wanted?
He peered into the cave. "Pangs?" His voice echoed slightly — he hoped nobody was in there — and he dipped out. It was too dark to see much anyway, his eyes hadn't yet adjusted to the darkness that Nightclan seemed to live under, though the League's forest wasn't exactly far off. It didn't seem as nice as Kier's den. He wasn't keen on leaving it, it was more comfortable than he'd like to admit and the close presence to someone so familiar made him feel safer. But he supposed if he was going to be apart of the clan, he had to actually be a part of the clan.
"I don't think so — maybe it's too early to tell." He nodded, smiled, "but it'll be fine. I think I needed it as well." The fact still didn't sit right with him.
The voice of his daughter made Kier visibly hunch inward, the wall that had slipped around Laertes immediately rising back up again and all his gentleness turning to irritated violence. Shoulders jutted up and head down, he turned just enough to watch as Brat bundled over, his eyes defensive and his lip twitching slightly against a soft growl. It was harmless — she had long since learned he wouldn’t actually hit her — but the fact that she knew that only made the growl more aggravated. It was suddenly clear how young Kier was, a single father and little more than an apprentice himself. “What are you doing out?” he asked snappishly.
Brat didn’t answer, instead stopping in front of Druzyprince and peering up at him with a rude frown, like he were some strange trophy that had just arrived in camp. Her head was tilted far back; to her, he was like a skyscraper. “Who are you?”
“It doesn’t matter who he is — go away.” Kier had almost perfected the art of the stern parent voice; at first, when they’d first been born, he’d just sounded like a child over-compensating for his youth, too hostile and out of his depth. He’d get drawn into arguments, over-explaining himself because he didn’t know he could just not give an answer. Now, he had the necessary distance to his tone; no more ’why? ‘because I said so’ ‘why?’ ‘BECAUSE I SAID SO!’; no more shouting matches with kits who knew how to aggravate him.
“Have you ever killed a guy?” Brat asked Laertes, still looking up at him and ignoring Kier; she’d latched onto the newcomer immediately with all the force of a child’s first puppy crush. “Are you my dad’s boyfriend?”
“Brat!” Kier snapped.
“Do you condition your fur? Who aaare you?” She stretched her neck up towards him, her frown deepening.